About Brotherkaramazov

Brotherkaramazov is single and is seeking females for a serious relationship.

Where do I begin? Well I am definitely a bibliophile (a lover of books). I guess that over the years I have read quite widely, although to some extent I have tended to focus my reading on literature and philosophy. At the moment, however, I am largely concentrating on physics. And it is a subject that certainly demands one’s concentration (the mathematics can go way beyond me).

Anyway, I also enjoy writing and I have been working for quite some time on producing a novel. Now maybe I need to apply myself to this task with greater effort. But I just wish that my creative juices would flow more often. I tend to need to go without sleep to really come alive as a writer.

Perhaps my greatest passion, however, is listening to music. Well I listen to all sorts, anything from pop to classical to anything from soul to heavy metal. Nietzsche said, “Life without music would be a mistake” and I wouldn’t altogether disagree with him.

Well as a typical bloke I do like my football too, oh and I don’t like cricket… I love it!

However, if to some extent I am your typical bloke I would also describe myself as being a touch neurodivergent. You see I can discuss philosophy intensely for hours and I am also not always very good at small talk. But if I can sometimes find social situations difficult to participate in I would say that under the right conditions I am a good communicator. And unlike a typical bloke I dont necessarily have to drink six pints in order to articulate my emotions.

Now what I should tell you is that I do have long term serious mental health issues (due to which I dont work). I should also say that when I joined this site my mental health was quite poor and this was in fact reflected in my choice of username. Well ‘The Brothers Karamazov’ by Dostoevsky is a very intense and deep 19th century Russian novel. Indeed you could describe it as being an epic spiritual meditation, akin to the Bible almost. Anyway, I guess that this meditation seemed to somehow mirror the rather different ‘headspace’ that I was in.

In fact my mental health ended up deteriorating to the point where I briefly became psychotic. Lets just say that I had some quite creative thoughts about physics. However, I can draw some positives from what I have been through. If I became inexplicably preoccupied with physics this has now become an intellectual passion of mine. I have also achieved a real clarity with regards what I want to do with my writing. I can now see how my novel, which is semi autobiographical, can bring a unity to 30 years or more of experience that I have had of mental illness.

The main thing for me to report, though, is that my mental health is now much better than it has been for some time. And I guess that I decided to rewrite this description to introduce a bit more sanity to it.

However, my reason for being on this site has not changed. I am still looking for a connection. No, I already have wi fi. I am here searching for ‘the one.’ That is a woman who I can build a serious and lasting relationship with.

Well I am definitely looking for a strong mental compatibility and I think that if the right person for me is out there our minds would just ‘click.’ This would be intellectually and in terms of the way we looked at the world… right down to us getting each other’s humour.

However, I am also looking for something that operates on an emotional level. Now the sweet fruits of exciting passion and loving affection do bring emotional life to a relationship. Well I certainly want these things. But I am also looking to share a deep commitment with someone. And a committed relationship is about partners having the willingness to make the the effort to make things work, it’s also about them being able to trust each other and it’s about them having each other’s back too. Well I would say that if a relationship has true emotional substance to it then it is in such things that this is to be found.

Now I do have to say that I am not a great one for doing lots of activities. But if you like making the odd trip to the theatre, paying the occasional visit to museums and art galleries as well as spending some time in bars and cafes well these are things that I like doing too. I guess what I’d like to say, though, is that I am a very verbal person. And so if you are looking for someone with whom you could spend countless hours just listening to lots of good music while having lots of great conversation… then maybe we could be an excellent match?

Anyway, what I will say is that if you are looking for something serious and if you have a warm heart, a nice smile and a good mind then to me that does sound promising. If you are also not averse to getting to know this bohemian type who lives in a rather forgotten northern town then I am thinking that maybe we should explore the possibilities. Now, of course, we might find ourselves going down a dead end. But then again, who knows? We might find that we have been looking for each other all along xx